I've decided to spend new years alone. Not because I'm feeling 'woe is me', I'm not feeling like that at all. I just want to be alone. I'm going to spend the day at the beach, maybe down at Lorne and then drive back later on. I don't feel like being with people and everyone seems to be doing their own thing. I could go to a party but I don't feel like it. I want to be fresh on New Years Day, not having a hangover or feeling any other way. This is for me.

Next year is going to be for me. No more settling for second best or me not being first best in someone else's priority line. I put myself down too much and think that this is how it's meant to be. That I don't deserve any better so I just take what I can get. Bollocks to that.

I'd like to meet someone and fall in love. If it doesn't happen it doesn't happen. If it does, then shit!! I'll have to try and not run for the hills hahaha.

See you on the other side.