I have all these things going through my mind but when it comes time to write them down I don't remember.

Still tired. Although I was shaking today whilst having lunch. My hands were shaking. Scouted out a location for photo shoots. I have so many ideas and I know how I want them to look but I need to be realistic. I'm still learning and I'm not a professional. Portrait photography is one of the hardest forms you can do. I spoke to another friend today about doing a shoot and they are keen. I'm excited about it. I just need to get good!

I feel like I'm going to be in this situation forever. I'm happy alone but it's getting a bit tedious. I just wish you would allow yourself to take a chance on me. I just want to see if what I think I feel for you is real, or whether it's something I've made up in my head. I wake up in the morning and I want you next to me, to feel your soft warm skin against mine. To snuggle into the crook of your arm and put my arm over your chest and go back to sleep. I want that so much.

Meh, whatever. It'll never be.

Early morning start tomorrow, not looking forward to it but it's helping out a friend and that is important.

I'm loving my Ned Kelly book. Although I know what happens I'm still holding out that he'll win and survive. Seems like the coppers are right royal bastards out to get him no matter what.

The next few weeks are going to be busy. I keep saying to myself that I'm going to tone down my social commitments but geez things keep popping up. Bloody friends and their gigs! Joking, it's great practice for me and my camera.

No idea what I'm doing for new years. Staying at home on my own at this point. I hate new years and I hate committing myself too early. Sounds horrible I know. I know who I want to spend it with but that's not an option. That's just fairy tale bullshit and it's not reality. Being around couples (no offense) doesn't really appeal to me. Guess that means I'll be alone seeing as my friends are all hooked up. *thumbs up*