I wish I could take away the pain and the hurt and the hell that someone in my life is going through right now. I never realised it was going to be this hard. Or painful. It's not fair, it makes me angry and it makes me down right sad. It hurts a lot. Not just for them. I hate seeing those I care about so much in any form of pain. I want to take it off them and suffer it for them. I feel so useless. I have no control. Sometimes I think the words I say are just stupid and not helpful. I don't know what to do. I want to do more but I just don't know what or how. It's going to get harder but I'm not going anywhere. I love you so much. You've taught me so much and I admire you more than you know. I know you'll get through this. I know we'll laugh about it when it's all over. Chink our glasses together and drink to success. I know, it feels like that day is so far away. It will come and you will have success. You will smile again. You will be happy again. You will be free of this hell. I love you baby girl.