For the first time in my life I'm ok. It's taken a lot of hurt, pain, loss, and suffering to get to this point. I'm really proud of myself for taking steps to be a better person on the inside and take on my fears and insecurities. I'm hurting right now. A lot in fact. I so hope and wish that what I'm doing will magically work out and I'll get what I want. I don't think that's going to happen. I don't think I will be fought for. That hurts. But I'm in such a better place mentally and emotionally that I know I'll get through it. I didn't say I'd get over it, just through it.

I know in my heart I will never get over you. No matter who else comes along in my life. I know that if I don't see you for 10 years and then I did that my first laying of eyes on you will make me feel exactly how I feel about you now and have for the past x years.

You will forever be in my heart.


- Posted from the depths of my mind.