Why does this happen? I had an awesome night last night. Despite feeling rotten and not wanting to go anywhere I went to the gig. I didn't want to let anyone down not that they would have missed me if I wasn't there anyway. I had a great night. For the most part I never know what to say to people so I'm always quiet. And sometimes my brain is just 'on' and I'm on fire. So last night was an 'on' night. Loved the bands, really enjoyed myself. Chatted to some new people and all of a sudden the back was closing and we had to move to front bar. But where were my friends. Fuckers had bailed on me and didn't even say goodbye or look for me to say goodbye! How rude! I thought it was funny that for once I was last to leave.
But today being here it all has gone downhill. And now it's that mood of hollowness and hopelessness that it will forever be like this with no chance of change or escape.
I should be grateful for everything I do have. And I am. But it's like a switch in my head that just flicks automatically and bang! I plummet to lowness
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