Sundays are food days for me.

I had the best 'breakfast' this afternoon. Prosciutto, pancetta, sweet spiced gherkins, strawberries, Hungarian salami, Sicilian olives, goats cheese, South Cape camembert, quince paste and Pheasant Farm pate with biscuits. Very decadent!

My spaghetti bolognese is currently cooking.

So very tired. Despite increasing my thyroid medication levels I don't think I've got enough 'juice' flowing. I noticed late this week I've put on some weight which is super awesome! But it means my levels are really low (which is really bad). Hence being super tired all the time and my brain is starting to feel fuzzy again. My memory is almost non existent. I forget things all the time. I can't even hold a conversation properly because I forget what I've been up to to even tell anyone. I'm just a mental blank. I'm so sick of it. I haven't been able to get my levels right for about 2 years. It's just an ongoing struggle. And it concerns me a lot if I want to study next year. How am I going to do well when I can't even remember what I just read? Maybe I just have to bite the bullet and really dose up and get used to having no chest whatsoever and being nothing but bones instead? Nah, can't do that. It depresses me too much. Last summer I cried when I looked at myself in the mirror in my new bikini's. I was too embarrassed to even take the dog to the dog beach because I thought I looked so anorexic and felt revoltingly disgusting.

I think I might try and find a Russian Prince.

Loving the new EP. I hate that my favourite live song seems to be everyone else's favourite live song too.... I hate that! Go like another song! Now I look like a sheep following the herd. I liked it first! Baaah