I think I just crashed.

I feel like I'm trying to cram all this stuff into my life and I keep thinking up crazy stuff to do. I need to stop thinking so recklessly and pull my fucking head in. It's like I feel I should be 10 steps ahead of myself even before I've taken a step.

Stupid. Just take a step back.

I'm frustrated,I'm sick of a certain situation and I just want things to be different but I don't know what that different is.

I have one line of thinking that I go along with and then BANG! all of a sudden my mind changes. I'm too confused and I'm too much contradictory.

I feel like I'm in a bodysuit that is not my own skin and I just need to shed it to get rid of this feeling I have. Just detach yourself from me so I can be me. I need to shed the skin that is holding me down but instead it's just weighing me down. Shaking it off is.... well it would be beneficial but then what do I do.

I can see it but it's just a fantasy. I'm so sick of my fucking reality. BORING!

I don't want to get older. Can I stay this age forever? I don't want to be younger but I don't want to get old.


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