Today was a very bad day. I didn't cope well with it at all. I wanted to cry, scream, yell, kick, punch and destroy. I felt sadness, misery and a lot of anger mixed in. I was in one what I call a 'ropable' mood. basically stay out of my way lest you want my wrath. Looks could kill. Just leave me alone. Don't talk to me, don't ask me to do anything, just back away very slowly and then run for your dear life. It was just shithouse.

But I have the most wonderful friends. Rose without you I would be lost. You just get it and know what to say with your upfront honesty. I know you'll tell me straight how it is - how you see it to be. Samantha, my darling Samantha. You always support me even though I do things you tell me you'd prefer I didn't. Because you care. Rach, my best girl who has put up with me the longest. I can't tell you what's going on because my shit is just bullshit right now and is nothing compared to what you are going through. You just don't need my crap right now. Being able to speak to you tonight was the best thing. I miss you so much and you calmed me without even knowing what's wrong. Thank you for helping me when I needed it.

Lastly. Have you seen the moon tonight? Wherever you are in the world make sure you take a walk outside when it's dark and gaze up into the sky. You will see a crescent moon so bright with a soft shading of the whole moon filling it's circumference. Wow. If you are lucky enough to also have a black clear night sky the stars are almost close enough that if you reach real hard on tippy toes you might just be able to grab one. But don't hold on too long, remember to hold it in your palm long enough that you feel its touch and warmth and glow and then release it back for someone else to share in.

Whatever happens it will be ok.





- Posted from the depths of my mind.