It's rather warm today. Especially when you wear numerous layers and have hot yummy miso soup by the yarra.

Feeling a bit better but still thinking I'm behaving like an asshole. Why do I feel guilty for someone else's childish behavior!

I also know I place more expectations on someone than I do for other friends.

I'm trying I really am. I'm trying to get through this. I'm trying to be a better person. I'm trying to love myself more. I wonder if I'm a fake sometimes. That I'm still hiding my fears - hiding part of myself because I'm so damned scared that if someone finds the real me....

I don't know. I can only do the best I can. I'm lonely. I just want comfort. I think that's what I've needed for a really long time.

Having said that I am really looking forward to my week away. So much!


- Posted from the depths of my mind.