You know I think I'm really good at creating an illusion. I did it today. I put on the mask and away I went. Silently I was so empty and flat and I just wanted to cry. When it's needed I'm whoever you want me to be.

Sad, miserable, depressed - all those things you won't see.

This is the first time I've really come to this decision and it hurts. It's why I feel like this. I know I won't feel like this forever but at the moment I do and I will for a while longer.

I love you and I'll miss you.

I'm sorry.