Yesterday was good but of course today I've drifted back to fantasy land. It's so nice and cosy and UNREAL there. Saturday is the big test. Even then I know what must be done.

I finished my first proper assignment tonight. I really don't have any idea if what I have done is 'correct'. However, to achieve a grade of less than 75% (well I've scored myself at 77%) will be disappointing. Yes I'm setting myself a high standard.

I'm so hungry. I've lost weight, my anxiety has returned, and I'm not taking care of myself. If I go to bed before 11pm tonight it will be the first night in a while... I'm so tired too.

I still want what I want.

Holiday. Want to go even though it's way more than I wanted to pay.

Elizabeth Taylor died today. She was so beautiful. If she had plastic surgery whoever her surgeon was, wow she looked fantastic even in her seventies. What a beautifully gracious woman. So she had 8 husbands. Good on her for being able to love so many times again. I admire that. It's not something I'm able to do as I just fuck it up every time.

Time for beddy byes.