I'm exhausted. Today was exhausting. It's like delving into the deep dark depths of the ocean and pulling out something from the bottom of the ocean that you didn't even know or realise existed. Exhausting.

I'm starting to doubt my abilities regarding my degree and it's only week 3. Working and studying is going to be damn hard. These subjects aren't even hard and I'm already behind. I'm not overly concerned at this stage but I have got to STOP with the social activities. Seriously, one night a week is all I should be allowing myself. I'm off to the GC tomorrow. Workshops start Fri-Mon. I haven't even finished my homework. Tomorrow before I go- but I don't even have time.

I'm tired. Exhausted. I just want to sleep. I've had two late nights in a row. Both nights I've had interrupted sleep. I just want to have time off work to study. Negative. Cannot afford to do so. Must be more diligent with my time.

I'm also at the point of giving up/walking away from something. I can't do it anymore. Stupidly I'm giving it some more time but I know in my heart it's not going to turn out the way I want it to. Hope is not it's all cracked up to be. Hope = hurt.