Today was really good. Until I started questioning something (again).

I really want things to be happening. I feel stalled and stagnant.

I feel like good things are about to happen but If I'm looking the other way at that precise moment I'm going to lose it or miss out on it. It'll be gone and my chance will be gone and I'll be left lingering...

I know I'm not putting in 100%. I've only been doing enough to get by so I really can't be disappointed with the results I get in return. Be honest with yourself. My pride is taking a little bit of a denting. I am better, I can do better. I just haven't really applied myself that much. Perhaps the ego needs to be put in check huh? Take down the chip on my shoulder.

I can feel my insides coming alive again. I felt it today. Like I'm ready to burst.....