I've learnt a lot about myself the past 2 days. Specifically, my own selfishness.

Growing up an only child has contributed, or I would even say is, the main cause for my selfishness. I have not had the privilege of knowing what it is like to have someone else there that I have to think about. When you're an only child you get everything. You ask, you shall receive. In a privileged household that is. But just generally - conversations, communication, interaction.... just me. I'm still learning these basic and fundamental things. Does that not beg the question 'but am I not aware of others?'. Of course I am. I always put others first before me. Sometimes though I cannot differentiate between Myself and Another - specifically needs and wants.

I was rather gung-ho about a particular issue and then something else came up and I held off. The next day I read my horoscope (as I do every day) and it told me to really have a think about my actions. About what I was proposing to do. Because it's up to me to CHOOSE how I behave and act and react. I can go ahead with it but it will go one way... a not very good way. I held off and today I got the result I've been wanting for some time now.

It's not all about me. The world does not revolve around me (thank goodness!). I am not forgotten or less loved or less thought of or less wanted.... it's just not about me so stop thinking about ME.

It's been a good lesson to learn. It's opened my eyes up more and I'm grateful for that.