So what's going on in the heavens for so many of my friends feeling a little down right now? What is with that? I don't like it. Please go away. I feel guilty because everything is going swell with me right now. Sure I've completely wasted my holidays but I'm not really that upset about it. I've liked hanging at home doing sweet FA. I've loved hanging with my dog. I think I've needed this time alone to just be. Not stress that I should be doing this or that. I've seen friends. I've not isolated myself. I should have finished Schindler's List but to honest, I'm not that into it. I know I should finish it so I've learned something about history and more about the man but can't I just watch the film? It's a long read.

I'm really looking forward to tomorrow evening. I really hope # has a great time. It's fun to actually put some thought into going out and try to make it a bit more interesting and mysterious for the other person. Anyway, I'm excited about it. I wish it was something I could more often with #.

I'm snail pace getting into fixing up things in the house. I have a stack more stuff to put on ebay (after I re-photograph items that didn't come up well today). So my disciplined act regarding the finances is working so far. Hence me not making a ton of day trips these holidays due to petrol costs. I'm on a budget and I don't have to do EVERYTHING in 2 weeks.

I've also decided to finish off my sailing ship when I'm ready to get the top of my shoulder done too. It's going to hurt so bad! And I have to have the money for it so selling some more things will be imperative for that. Plus just re-decorating the house. I hate my tv stand it's so long and unproductive. If I downsized to something more practical I could use the wall space on the right for another bookstand which I do need. So I have things in mind that I'd like but I'm not being the typical me and just buying it because I can. Saving to pay off my photographic equipment is priority number one. I'm allowing myself ONE ITEM per month as my 'luxury' item other wise NO SPENDING! I will be purging the unnecessary stuff I just don't need this year. So bear with me house. Thanks.

I'd also love to re-do my front. It's so hideous. Just rip out what is there (which will cost $$) and replant natives that will be hardy and pretty. Eff off those horrible palm type plants.

Oh and I want a tee-pee for outside!! Out the back. Yeah me please!

I'm hungry. I have roast potatoes and red onion in the oven and I'm making a salad too. Plus there is Pate, french camambert (it cost lots like $11) and danish salami to much on. Need more chubb!!!

Seeing the Endocrinologist next week. I have a feeling it will be a waste of time. But I'm typing this with a few spelling errors I shouldn't be making so brain function isn't at its optimum at the moment. Levels have definitely increased but still not 100%. And $10 I don't weigh 50.4kg's anymore. I bet it's decreased slightly. Poo. I would love to reach 51 or even 52! Mmmmm chubb chubb. So don't hate me cos I'm skinny I can't help it. Literally. And please don't ever say 'but you're so skinny', 'you've lost weight', 'I wish I could be that skinny'. Ah, no you don't. Not with everything else that comes with it.

I'm going to make some Bailey's.

I'm in a really good mood today. I hope this lasts forever.

Love