I've just watched my dog walk around the lounge room with his Christmas Bear in his mouth. It's kind of like watching a big mother animal carrying her pups or cubs in her mouth. Except it's a male German Shepherd with a large sized brown bear with a red hat and jacket on. Yeah, he's a cutie for sure.

Time is running extremely short to finalise my Folio. I really need to get the 'shipwrecked' photo shoot done and I'm thinking I'm going to have to pull some guns out and do some extra travelling to make it happen. I'm also quite apprehensive that whilst I can visualise how I want it to look, that when the time comes it just won't be as I've visualised.

I'm also coming to the conclusion that whilst I love all these high fashion and glamour photos that others take, that I'm just not cut out for it. I don't have the money to hire mua or stylists nor do I have a clothes rack to drape over models. As much I love that sort of photography it's out of my league. I need to stick to my landscape photography and develop that more. I think I expect too much of myself too soon. That I expect to be shooting award winning images after a few months of understanding my camera more. The skill takes years to accomplish (I assume). I've learnt so much already but I'm still in infant stages. I'm learning to walk you know. There's still running and jumping to go.

This year I need to slow down. I need to re-focus and to start thinking about my future more. There I was today about to book flights to Spain for October. No I don't have the money for it but I could have got flights with points plus pay for $1500. But then there's accommodation plus food and I'm just me.... it's not like I have someone to go with. Plus I'm severely in negative leave right now...... So maybe I'll slow my fanciful ideas down and take a week off instead and go to Tasmania on a photography expedition- after Uni has finished for the year. I need to have money behind me, I need to fix up my house and make it better. My grand idea, well my two grand ideas that I've set 1-2 years completion are to re-do my front garden completely, re-do my vegie garden (build it up with a retaining wall) and also to get a new bath. Plus minor furniture changes. Small doses. There is no rush for any of this. Ideas. I'm all about ideas.

The first step though is to start re-painting the front fence. BLACK!! I know, cool. My mother came up with the idea! Of all people!

Work is making me so sleepy. It's taking ages for me to fall asleep (brain stop turning and shhhhh sleepy time) and when I do I keep waking up and then the hound needs to go outside and then I need to pee and then he's woompering outside and I have to go bring him in and then ........ oh can I just sleep until I want to get up.

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