Donkeys

When I was little my grandparents lived in Croydon. I think they had a milk bar but that may be incorrect. Anyway, I'd go on little walks with my nanna and we'd always walk past a paddock that had a donkey in it. Every time I went past I always had to pat the donkey. I've always loved them, ever since then.

I cannot explain how much I got out of a recent attendance at the Donkey Shelter in Diamond Creek. They are such friendly animals. It was hard to actually leave after giving them so much love and pats.

http://home.vicnet.net.au/~donkeysh/

Make it Hot!

HHHHHOOOOOOOOTTTTTTT

Going to see Jim Jones Revue tonight. I pitty the poor bastard or bitch behind or near me tonight..... i'll be swishing my head around (and hair!) lots to those rockin' tunes. Keep your distance peoples.

Hahahahahah now THAT is funny! Nope, can't say what it is on here but gee I had a little smirk on my face. Of course you do, because I'm awesome. And you know that. Even after all these years.

I love it when my friends are honest with me. True friendship is not holding back. I value it immensely. Sometimes I just need to stand back and see it from someone else's perspective. So thank you mini me.

Really want to...... but must hold back. Too much is just not good. Don't go over the top.... as I can tend to do. Just be patient grasshopper.

Well FUCK YOU!

When I see you next I'll be telling you too.

Feeling a bit let down at the moment. Or it could be that I'm just not feeling it today.

Feeling a bit lonely. I'd like company but not company in the sense that I want to talk to anyone. More just company that is here, another person to just hang with without the need for words.

Had a great 4 days off but it was more work than play. Definitely didn't have as much beach time as I wanted. Given it's 40 degrees today I should be at the beach today. But I'm tired and lethargic and don't want to do anything. The only things to do are work - cook dinner, make lunch for the week, have a shower.

Too much effort.

I'm so tired. Sleepy time.

Before I forget there was a seal in the water at Apollo bay beach. I saw it come in on a wave. Big brown. I wondered what it was. Too big for seaweed. Hmmmm must be seaweed. Oh look the seaweed is floating.... It's got flippers..... What is it? Other people have now noticed. Oh it's head .... Looks like a dog.... It's a seal!!!!!

Thanks flipper! So far there has been hopalong, piglets and now flipper! Yes flipper because he has flippers for feet!


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When I'm away I have a hard time relaxing. I feel like I should be out there doing something, not lying on my bed in my tent as I am now.

Its been a busy half a day. Packed up and drove from port fairy to Marengo. On the way I stopped at the bay of islands and then it was on to wreck beach. That was a slog. It's not easy walking on that sand. I got some great shots though and really happy with what I achieved. The trek back was tiring. Back up 300 odd steps. I can't tell you how many sand flies bit me. It was like a swarm at one point around me and they hurt!

What I do enjoy when travelling the coast is all the strangers you pass on the way and most people nod their head or say hello. It's so lovely I really like that.

There's heaps of people with their dogs in the caravan park. And lots of children!!! One little girl poked her head into my kinda open tent. Cute little blonde thing. Bella is her name. We had a little chat. She's very sweet. 'mum there's a lady in there!'. Talking about me in my tent.

I'm going to shower (not that I feel like it but 2 days without and being in the sun, sunscreen on and oceanness over my skin... might be an idea). Then drive into town and get fish n chips. Might watch a movie tonight. Keef is kinda boring right now. Alot of his book is about the stones and their sound and blah blah I don't want to read page after page about the band and this sound came from doing this and that. YAWN.





Wreck Beach. Photo by me! Completely unaltered and taken as is. Pretty good hey!


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South beach

Crappy photo taken with my hipstamatic - there's more sand in it than sea but it's a lovely spot


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More photos by me!

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One for the Folio

The below is of the lighthouse on griffith island I took last night. It's completely unaltered and exactly how it was taken in camera. I love it. It will be one of my Folio pieces for my shipwreck theme folio.



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Why is it fresh air tuckers you out so much?

It's 9pm and I'm already in my pjs in bed in my tent. Early night me thinks.

I decided to go to warrnambool today and not tomorrow on my way to Apollo bay. Reason is if I don't make wreck beach then I won't finish my folio the way I want it to shot. I can make low tide tomorrow - it's after 11am

So today I went to the big W and basically just did Flagstaff Hill. Then I had a cazy idea of driving to Portland! Which I did and shouldn't have wasted my time. Back to port fairy I came, not before being breathalysed and getting busted for having an out of date rego sticker on my car. "all good you can go". Let off sweet!

Oh and then there was me overtaking. One car in front I queried to myself whether they were a cop. I overtook. No worries. Miles down the road after I've been sitting on 120km all of a sudden there's this car behind me. Approaching a new town it's mandatory to slow down and I do. 70km. Is that the same car I overtook ages ago? As soon as we reach 100 km zone the car behind opens up and zroom overtakes me. Holy shit! Unmarked cop car. Would have been clocking 130-140 the way it hammered.

Back to port fairy and east beach for a swim. Made my way into town, found the ice creamery and tried Timboon ice cream Turkish delight. Yum!

Went to south beach (back beach) and read my book on the sand for a bit. It was too windy and the sun was hiding behind yhe clouds so I came home.

I've just watched ep 7 of boardwalk empire ( I have my laptop with me- to upload my photos of course ;))

Sleepy now. Packing up in the morning and heading to wreck beach for a shoot and then to Marengo for 2 nights. Tomorrow should be a bit of a rest day - well after I check in and set the tent up again. I'll be relaxing by that beach.

Missing some people.



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Buggered. Couldn't get up so left way later than planned. Got here at 4pm - only took 3.5 hours to drive. Awesome drive. I love the long roads, singing to dodgy songs in my car and clocking a comfortable 120-130km along the way. Also, I'm not a "hoon" if anyone thinks I am for those speeds. I, unlike the majority of muppets on the road actually enjoy driving. I tend to drive what I'm comfortable at, which invariably is not the 'recommended' limit.

Set up my tent. Met my next door neighbour, a lovely man who offered to move his car, help me with my tent, offered me a hammer (thanks I have 2!) and told me he'd been travelling around wa for the past 7 months with his wife.

I checked out the town. Had a dip in the ocean - god damn it was so warm!, got fish n chips for dinner, ate it in the sun on the lawn opp the wharf and then headed to Griffiths Island. I was on that Island from 7:30pm until 10pm. I got some lovely shots of the lighthouse at sunset, met hoppalong (wallaby) and then walked back - IN THE DARK. Ok it was light when I left and then I was trying to take more shots of the water and oopps it's getting real dark. All of a sudden these birds appear out of nowhere and are flying around everywhere. It was beautiful. I could not capture them at all. Phooey. Then I can hardly make out the path.... birds are flying overhead everywhere, there's sounds coming out of the bushes and animals I can't see rustling and moving about. I don't even have a torch. I run. In thongs. I figure it's dark so there's no giant snakes or crocodiles and those big brown things look like Tasmanian devils. Run Run Run. Awesome spot just not recommended when it's real dark. And not alone. Take a bloke with you.

Cider and I'm going to try an ep of boardwalk empire unless I fall asleep beforehand. Episode 7!!!!!


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Today is a day where things just shit me. I particularly dislike people that I do not know nor even met addressing me as 'Nat'. I'm sorry, do you know me? Are we close friends? No! So don't call me by my nickname.

Looking forward to the next few days but I will miss hound dog considerably. I also don't think I'll make wreck beach (again) which is a huge part of my folio.

As an aside I'm super happy right now. I feel like it's a trick. Like I'm existing in a peripheral world that crosses into the real world but everything I'm feeling and thinking is an illusion in the real world. The bubble will burst and I'll be standing alone in a circle of people pointing and laughing at me because I thought my happiness was real when in fact it was an illusion. It's like I feel guilt for being happy, yet I feel like I've been waiting my whole life to finally feel and experience this.


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I had a realisation today. Or at least, I think I did. A realisation about why I'm feeling like I'm feeling, about why I'm feeling so good lately. I know that it is a culmination of being in the right head space, of focusing on the positive, on beating down those bag, negative, hurtful thoughts that like to enter the sphere of my thinking, of being happy with where I am in my life, in loving the friends who are in my life, of beginning to accept myself and even like myself. Whilst it's all those things and more, it's also

I'm starting to enjoy Keith Richards 'Life'. It's taken a while. The first chapter is kick arse awesome, really engaging, electric, fast, pulls you in like you're there and you become part of the chaos that is going on. Then it kind of gets dull. Now it's getting good.

Another resignation today. MOFO'S STOP LEAVING ME!! Seriously, I will not cope. First Marky Mark and now Justin(e). Seriously. Where is my entertainment going to come from now? Who am I going to talk to about stuff? And crack jokes with and stir up? Hmph.

I won't be scared at Wreck Beach on my own anymore because I have someone who is coming along for the ride! Hell yeah, it'll be fun now.

I hope your day was awesome and you spent it in the sunshine!

Looking forward to pumpkin soup and Boardwalk Empire tonight. Thank you *smiles*

Three late nights in a row. So sleepy tired right now. Why is there cold air blowing on me. Stupid train.

Such a lovely evening with my bestie. I did however make an error in choosing where we went. I didn't realize how expensive the place is. For what we got it was way over priced. Movida would have been better (and cheaper) and more fulfilling. However it was a lovely evening spent with wonderful company.

Here's that nauseous feeling on the train again. No I don't think it's an anxiety thing I definitely think it's a medication thing.

Really looking forward to being home, seeing hound dog and falling asleep in my bed. Zzzzzz

Not long now

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It's so bleak outside. I could let it get to me but there is nothing TO get at me.

It's like if you ever have moments where, if you were going to die, now, at this moment, then you'd die happily.

It's one of those moments now.
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I'm still being a contradicting snot..... need to have some further discussions on the issue.

The donkeys need our help too!

Palaces of Montezuma (spl?). Highlight of last night. It was the one song I HAD to hear. So beautiful. Thank you for playing it.

Excited, nervous, apprehensive. Doing really great right now. Not used to this consistency. I like it but it scares me. Anything that is good scares me - no, anything that is good with me scares me.

It's touching yet sad to learn that the same afflictions I suffer from others suffer it too. I would take their suffering and weigh it on my shoulders. Why do I dislike seeing others suffer- why do I have to be a martyr. I don't think I realist how common this is. I am not alone even though I think I am (with the exception of a few who truly understand- mini me and sam).

You still make me smile on the inside and glow on the outside. I have everything..... except you.


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I cannot believe how one simple comment which I would normally not give two iota's about put me in a low mood all afternoon. I mean really! Care factor zero. Why did it have an effect on me? The simple comment of 'You've died your hair again haven't you' - 'Yes' - 'Your hair will fall out'. Like it was a tsk tsk thing. Like I'm doing something naughty and bad. Seriously? After 20 years sunshine (and that's two years less than your age by the way) my hair has NOT fallen out. So leave me alone. Just because I don't fit your 'Chapel Street' ways and I'm a bit 'different' to the norm - I don't sit in a hairdressers once every six weeks getting my hair or roots coloured (blonde).

So Hong Kong Phooey to YOU!

Grrrrrrrr

Don't Judge Me.

How much does one sacrifice for the end result?

Lots of thinking to do.

Can't stay here.


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I like my hair




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Dinner consisted of a lot of garlic. Chicken Kiev, garlic bread (home made) and my favourite salad (one whole garlic clove crushed included).

Currently watching Schindlers List. It's horrific and horrendous. Beautifully filmed. The black and white really adds so much more to the film - it makes the film. Ralph Fiennes is outstanding as Goeth - such a menacing prick. It's not pleasant but I'll perservere.



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Two things from driving home (happily alone) last night

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQ41hqlV0Kk

I can't seem to upload the video so here's the link - Rod Stewart - Young Turks

But you said one thing two days ago, and now you're saying something different.. which is it?

Truth be known I'm an utter contradiction. Totally and utterly. I say one thing but really I mean something else. I say one thing and then I do the opposite. Hi, I'm Piscean. It's my birthright.

A few things:

I've decided that I WILL go on a holiday overseas.... next year. Russia and the Ukraine.

This year will be spent saving money like I've never saved before. The house can wait until next year.

I'm looking forward to Uni.

Friends are everything and if I did not have the friends I have now in my life I would not be here. I'm a whole lot better and happier in my thirties than I ever was in my twenties.

I'm doing great just focusing on me right now. Yes I'm still seeing my friends and I'm not being selfish, it's just little things of even staying in last night and having a decent cooked meal, time on the couch and an early night. Even if I crashed at 930pm and was in bed by 10pm.

Photo shoot today went well despite me half giving up not really understanding what I was meant to be photographing. I'm confident I have two graphic images to use for my folio.

Time to get ready and head out to a friend's place for a surprise birthday.

Love

Mum and the hound dog

I had a bad dream this morning. I won't go into all the specifics but you came into a cafe where I was with friends and I asked you a question to which you didn't like the way it was worded. Like the question was accusatory or fishing for inormation. I felt like a wounded deer shot in the woods. I had never heard you speak like thy before let alone to me. You were being a prick. I got up out of my chair, told you you were being a prick and slapped you with my right hand on the right side of your face. I then proceded to walk towards Vic park for some reason. Soft lush grass, it was starting to get dark. I walked past people kicking a footy around. I ended up down an alley ended by a brick wall and old wooden door with a metal handle. I opened the door but nothing but another alley and utter darkness to my right. To the left was a little bit of light but I couldn't see where it went and I needed the main street again. As I closed yhe door I heard a noise, a movement from yhe darkest part of the alley. I quickly turned to make my way back out of the alley I was in, back to where there were people. But all of a sudden it was like I'd been drugged. I was staggering forward. Scared there was someone coming for me from behind. I started yelling 'help' 'someone help, if I can just get to a fire hydrant'!

A fire hydrant? How a fire hydrant was going to make me safe I do not know. People did come out to help. I woke up.


It is so black outside. Dark menacing clouds moving oh so quickly in the sky. Threatenig to open up and pour again. It first help watching the clouds whilst listening to The Dark Knight soundtrack. The sky is a blanket of varying shades of grey.

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These floods are just heartbreaking. I cannot imagine, more I don't want to, what it must be like. Not only to lose your home but families are gone. Mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, friends.... clinging on for life and then swept away. It's incomprehensible. My main fears of dying are fire, water or suffocation. Grasping for air that you just can't get. It's bloody horrible. Please rain, just stop.

I've just watched my dog walk around the lounge room with his Christmas Bear in his mouth. It's kind of like watching a big mother animal carrying her pups or cubs in her mouth. Except it's a male German Shepherd with a large sized brown bear with a red hat and jacket on. Yeah, he's a cutie for sure.

Time is running extremely short to finalise my Folio. I really need to get the 'shipwrecked' photo shoot done and I'm thinking I'm going to have to pull some guns out and do some extra travelling to make it happen. I'm also quite apprehensive that whilst I can visualise how I want it to look, that when the time comes it just won't be as I've visualised.

I'm also coming to the conclusion that whilst I love all these high fashion and glamour photos that others take, that I'm just not cut out for it. I don't have the money to hire mua or stylists nor do I have a clothes rack to drape over models. As much I love that sort of photography it's out of my league. I need to stick to my landscape photography and develop that more. I think I expect too much of myself too soon. That I expect to be shooting award winning images after a few months of understanding my camera more. The skill takes years to accomplish (I assume). I've learnt so much already but I'm still in infant stages. I'm learning to walk you know. There's still running and jumping to go.

This year I need to slow down. I need to re-focus and to start thinking about my future more. There I was today about to book flights to Spain for October. No I don't have the money for it but I could have got flights with points plus pay for $1500. But then there's accommodation plus food and I'm just me.... it's not like I have someone to go with. Plus I'm severely in negative leave right now...... So maybe I'll slow my fanciful ideas down and take a week off instead and go to Tasmania on a photography expedition- after Uni has finished for the year. I need to have money behind me, I need to fix up my house and make it better. My grand idea, well my two grand ideas that I've set 1-2 years completion are to re-do my front garden completely, re-do my vegie garden (build it up with a retaining wall) and also to get a new bath. Plus minor furniture changes. Small doses. There is no rush for any of this. Ideas. I'm all about ideas.

The first step though is to start re-painting the front fence. BLACK!! I know, cool. My mother came up with the idea! Of all people!

Work is making me so sleepy. It's taking ages for me to fall asleep (brain stop turning and shhhhh sleepy time) and when I do I keep waking up and then the hound needs to go outside and then I need to pee and then he's woompering outside and I have to go bring him in and then ........ oh can I just sleep until I want to get up.

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You are the gold at the end of a rainbow

Feeling tired. More so than I have been. Probably due to work. Blegh.

So there's a lovely work colleague of mine who is not doing so great at the moment. What is going on with that? I feel so guilty. I have nothing to make me feel sad. I could try if I wanted to but I don't want to. I don't like being sad. So my lovely work colleague is a bit down right now - constrained by timing really. Wanting to change things but relying on factors outside their control before they can make any decisions. My friend said they don't really talk about these things.... I felt really privileged they opened up to me about what's going on with them. I hope helped in some way to make them not feel so down. Just talking about it (whatever it is) is always a start.

I'm feeling really good about where I'm placed right now. I'm not exactly financial but I'm determined to make amends for that and rectify the situation. If I am diligently disciplined I can achieve a lot that will surprise even myself. So I am committed to the cause. Minimalism. I feel really good about that right now.


STEAK!

As I was waiting for my ride today in the rain to the Endocrinologist I was thinking about how much we (myself included) take for granted. How easy our lives are with modern technology. Things like washing machines and vacuum cleaners for example. Reading Keith Richards 'Life' made me think of these things. For the Gen X have we ever wondered what our parents or grandparents went through growing up. The modes of transport they had, the clothes on their backs, the way they washed clothes and then rung them dry. Or using a 'vacuum sweeper' in the 1920's which would just roll over the floor and rugs compared the lushness of vacuum cleaners that suck up all the crap left on the floor. I don't envy those hard days work at all.

I loved riding my bike and exploring through the town I grew up in. I had a big Pine tree forest up the road from me where I'd walk the dog with my dad and explore with my friends on bike or just wandering through. There were disused mines up there too. One was in the forest. Other parts of the forest had what was left of a little mud brick hut where someone used to make fires. There would be a sign way down reading 'Trespassers will be prosecuted'. I always thought that meant if you were caught on the property you would be shot. Coming down the Pine tree forest hill on your bike was exhilarating yet scary. You'd fly down there on your brakes the wind whipping into your face you were going so fast and if you skidded on the pine needles you'd go down! Bang.

So yeah, the Endo. Definitely worth my while coming to see her. Of course it is, cost $275. Ouch indeed. Seriously though she was great, took a thorough medical history, is making have some more blood tests (which I'm due for anyway) and will revisit in 3 months. She thinks, by looking at me today, I'm still under. I agreed although I am feeling so much better than I was 3 months ago. I got weighed too. It's the only time I weigh myself and I was surprised by the number. I was sure I'd lost a little bit of weight - not eating that well over the past 2 weeks kind of thing. The magic number was 50.7! I've never been that. I'm so pleased. A little bit more chubb please. So it's a slowly slowly process and hopefully she'll be able to help me out. My case is a little more complex than the "usual suspects" with an inactive thyroid.

It's a wee bit silly that it took a whole two weeks for me to finally get off my toosh and clean up the house a bit.

Last night was lovely and relaxing, Delicious cognac pudding with custard and cream followed a short while later with brandy ice cream in wafer cones! Yes, I get spoilt every time I visit S&D.

I had the weirdest dream this morning - or dreams I should say. They kept morphing into new ones and quite a few people I went to school with were in the dreams. It was quite odd. In one I was in the Ukraine trying to run to catch a train with someone I went to school with who just happened to be there. In another I was in a new job and I hated it and I just wanted to go back to my current job even though I didn't want to stay in my current job for long. But then it was like I had transferred to a new school with a bunch of other people and low and behold there were other people from my school there and I tried to move a chair out of the way in a room because people would walk into it and I was told that I had no right to move the chair. My reaction was "Fuck off Prue". Such hostility. Then it was some work thing with food and I'm trying to load up with the left overs and there's all this fresh food and I'm trying to get 2 fresh corns on the cob with the husk still on it. Weird. Then I'm trying to carry all this stuff in my arms and not drop it and cross a road with people....

One theme I am encountering in my dreams is how I am walking. I'm finding it extremely difficult to walk or move up stairs or even run. My legs get crossed over each other and it's like I'm going to fall down and I have to concentrate really hard in my head to make my legs work - at least function and move forward while they are still crossed. It's absolutely horrible. Trying to run for that train in the Ukraine before it left the platform. Man that was so hard. I don't know how I made myself do it, but I made it. Stupid crossed over bow legs.

Homework? But I'm on holidays I tells ya

Eeeeep! I have homework! Already! Whose idea was it exactly to contemplate and attempt a law degree? Hmmmm. Please stand forward and identify yourself! Oh. Ohhhhhh. It was YOU!

I mean what's the idea? I'm on holidays. It's hot for goodness sake and you want me to download podcasts and listen or watch them on my computer and then I'm required to do tasks following that. All for my workshop in March! Sure, but not today.

Can I just say I would be devastated - D.E.V.A.S.T.A.T.E.D if I ever *touch wood* became lactose intolerant. How could the world be so cruel to deny a human being the utter delight, bliss, enjoyment and freedom to eat whatever dairy product they desired. Like CHEESE! I couldn't imagine not ever being able to drink a cold glass of milk.






Thank you. You made my day.

Please, just leave me alone. I'm sick of you telling me shit that I don't want to hear. I'm not interested in hearing it or listening or believing it so just fuck off. *pokes tongue out in defiance* Ner Ner Ner.

Lovely day out with two beautiful ladies. The water was so soothing on my skin I didn't want to leave. I almost became the kid that starts stamping their feet in defiance. I.DON'T.WANT.TO.LEAVE. Really lovely day out.

Nice evening out. I just wanted to go home to bed. Don't hate me or think I'm boring because of it. I just want to wake up in my bed feeling good, not hungover in someone else's else worrying about driving my car home and not getting pulled over.

That is all.

Bed.

One whole part to describe the evening 'Bittersweet Lover'

I'm kind of apprehensive even though I know there is nothing to be apprehensive about.

Silly really.

I feel like I'm going to get nervous and forget to think or be unable to think.

I just want to have a really enjoyable, fun night out. Of course I want to make an impression but it's more about the substance and quality really.

Thanks Jonathan, it's pretty much how i've been feeling. Now you've just confirmed it. Cheers

So what's going on in the heavens for so many of my friends feeling a little down right now? What is with that? I don't like it. Please go away. I feel guilty because everything is going swell with me right now. Sure I've completely wasted my holidays but I'm not really that upset about it. I've liked hanging at home doing sweet FA. I've loved hanging with my dog. I think I've needed this time alone to just be. Not stress that I should be doing this or that. I've seen friends. I've not isolated myself. I should have finished Schindler's List but to honest, I'm not that into it. I know I should finish it so I've learned something about history and more about the man but can't I just watch the film? It's a long read.

I'm really looking forward to tomorrow evening. I really hope # has a great time. It's fun to actually put some thought into going out and try to make it a bit more interesting and mysterious for the other person. Anyway, I'm excited about it. I wish it was something I could more often with #.

I'm snail pace getting into fixing up things in the house. I have a stack more stuff to put on ebay (after I re-photograph items that didn't come up well today). So my disciplined act regarding the finances is working so far. Hence me not making a ton of day trips these holidays due to petrol costs. I'm on a budget and I don't have to do EVERYTHING in 2 weeks.

I've also decided to finish off my sailing ship when I'm ready to get the top of my shoulder done too. It's going to hurt so bad! And I have to have the money for it so selling some more things will be imperative for that. Plus just re-decorating the house. I hate my tv stand it's so long and unproductive. If I downsized to something more practical I could use the wall space on the right for another bookstand which I do need. So I have things in mind that I'd like but I'm not being the typical me and just buying it because I can. Saving to pay off my photographic equipment is priority number one. I'm allowing myself ONE ITEM per month as my 'luxury' item other wise NO SPENDING! I will be purging the unnecessary stuff I just don't need this year. So bear with me house. Thanks.

I'd also love to re-do my front. It's so hideous. Just rip out what is there (which will cost $$) and replant natives that will be hardy and pretty. Eff off those horrible palm type plants.

Oh and I want a tee-pee for outside!! Out the back. Yeah me please!

I'm hungry. I have roast potatoes and red onion in the oven and I'm making a salad too. Plus there is Pate, french camambert (it cost lots like $11) and danish salami to much on. Need more chubb!!!

Seeing the Endocrinologist next week. I have a feeling it will be a waste of time. But I'm typing this with a few spelling errors I shouldn't be making so brain function isn't at its optimum at the moment. Levels have definitely increased but still not 100%. And $10 I don't weigh 50.4kg's anymore. I bet it's decreased slightly. Poo. I would love to reach 51 or even 52! Mmmmm chubb chubb. So don't hate me cos I'm skinny I can't help it. Literally. And please don't ever say 'but you're so skinny', 'you've lost weight', 'I wish I could be that skinny'. Ah, no you don't. Not with everything else that comes with it.

I'm going to make some Bailey's.

I'm in a really good mood today. I hope this lasts forever.

Love

A little bit excited! Should be a really fun time.

Yeah so maybe I have been feeling a little down - at night time. What is with that? Tears before bedtime... where did you come from?

I made the best batch of chicken soup I've ever made. It's so damn delicious. The trick is to cook it on low. Not boil the bejesus out of it. The chicken is so tender. So very happy with my soup.

I watched How to Train your Dragon on Fox. It was so funny. I loved it. A tad emotional too but a really great enjoyable movie.

Have been relegated at home the past 4 days due to my cold. I feel like I've wasted half my holidays.

Future of the Left were rockin! I had a blast. I was lucky enough to meet the drummer and have a chat with him due to one of my mates lending his guitar to the guitarist for their shows. So that was kinda cool. The show was awesome. I lost my chewy wrapper ear plug outta my right ear going a wee bit shaky of the head during one of their last songs. Ran into an old friend I hadn't seen for years and had a chat. That was lovely. Felt like a real groupie hanging around the singer and base player - my friend was waiting to get his EP signed by all members of the band (the one that had lent his gee-tar). So yeah I just bee-line Julia and tell her how amazing she was and had I had my camera with me I would have loved to photograph her all night (she moves so well and the way her hair falls around when she's playing, wow, if I had a studio and knew how to photograph all of that...) So yeah, awesome night out with friends, had a blast and a really great time. I went home happy. No more Johnson's (baby tears) before bedtime. Woot!

Woke up feeling like crap again. No dog beach. Again. I'm such a bad parent. Went out and took photos for the day with a friend. It was nice to be doing that with someone else for a change. Brings on some motivation. I'm rather happy with what I took. It's a continual learning process. Knackered now. I'm hoping to take the hound out tomorrow. He's such a good boy.

Happy twenty eleven

So it is a new year. I have a cold! Not sure how I acquired it but it has left me somewhat debilitated. Thursday I couldn't go to the dog beach. Today I would have liked to take a drive up to Yarra Glen but there's no way I should be behind a vehicle for that amount of time. My head is whooshy, I haven't eaten (yet) and I'm all blocked up.

Instead I'm making chicken soup, chillin' on the couch and I'm going to watch movies on demand on Fox - they have Animal Kingdom, Inception and How to Train Your Dragon. So I'm turning this into a positive experience. Hanging with the hound too. He's been so wonderful and loving.

Got plans for the house this year but it will be a slow progress. I do want to turn my back room into a studio for my photography. The walls are a decent colour to use as a backdrop although I will need to improve the lighting in there. Slowly, slowly. I don't have the funds for it yet and I need to be super good with my money this year. I'll sell some furniture after January to fund some things I'd like to get - like a new bookcase, maybe a new tv unit (?) and I need something else to store items. I hugely dislike one of my storage units and will be selling it.


But today - to rest! Get my strength back so I can go out and take photos.