How does one deal with their shame and guilt? When you've done something that you are embarrassed and humiliated by. It's not about saying sorry to the other person. They may forgive you but how do you forgive yourself? You are the one who has to deal with the repercussions. The constant thoughts of your actions and the immense feeling of shame where you just want to hide from the world until it passes. No-one else knows yet you feel like everyone knows and whoever looks at you is judging you as a bad person.

What is done is done. I can't go back. I am sorry. I don't make excuses. I am who I am and I'm not perfect. I still have a long way to go in exorcising my demons. Lesson - shit loads of alcohol and prescription medication are a recipe for disaster. Moderation perhaps may be alright but excessive amounts - big no no. It only leads down. Alcohol is a depressant remember.