The last few days have been awful. Brought to you by the letter D.

I slept all of Saturday I was so tired. I managed to go to class on Saturday, got home around 2.30pm and went straight to bed. So tired. I thought 2 hours would be good. Yeah, the alarm went off at 4.30pm and I drifted... until 7.30pm. Thinking I'd get up in a few minutes.... I woke thinking it was around 9pm and I WOULD get up.... it was 4.51AM.

Yesterday was just awful. Like when you think it's never going to end and it's always going to be like this. If I could just go to sleep and not wake up. Really, really horrible.

And then the phone call. My levels have dropped rather drastically. 3 months ago they were at 10. They're now at 30. The higher the number the worse it is for me.

I cried so much. I just can't cope with it. Up and down for 2 years. Fixing doses is not helping. It's not working.

Whatever.