It's just past 9.12pm on a Saturday night and I'm desperately tired.

I'm forcing myself to eat dinner. I cooked dinner last night but was so tired I went to bed without eating anything.

I got my bloods taken today. I'll find out on the 28th what the results are. I'm not expecting good results. I'm expecting a reading of 'your levels are too high'= no wonder i'm tired! I'm so fucking sick of being tired. This has been going on for 4 years now of not being 'right'.

My tiredness is also making me question things. It's making my mood low. I can't study. I haven't studied for 4 nights in a row. I planned to have all my readings done by tomorrow so I have a whole week up my sleeve to work on my research assignment and do that - research!

What I need is to know. I can no longer give people an inch because they take a mile. They need to deserve the inch, not be given it.