No matter how far I've come I still feel miserable. It still hurts. I wish you would walk through the door and hold me and say that everything is going to be alright. The latter part I'm pretty sure is right, but the former..... that's never going to happen. I miss you.

Right now I just want to give up and go to sleep and let the world pass. I want to wake up fresh and feeling wonderful and happy and have everything that is making me feel like this be gone and far away and not even a memory. Gone to the point that it never existed and I will never feel it or be reminded of it again.

Apparently I'm managing. On my own. I am but it's still hard. Every day is hard.

Tomorrow I need to do well. More study tonight then fingers crossed I get over the line tomorrow.